a sincere apologyTo wear or not not wear … is that a question ?
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As the days turn to months and the months turn to years … the time arises for some questions to be
addressed …. mainly ~ can i ever be ready to wear a collar again ? am i worthy ? who judges this ? is this a decision only for Him ? what does it mean to me / Uus now ?
my personal story involves a life time of issues .. that came to a head last year ~ and in the process ~ my collar was stripped of me .. but Wwe still remain together ~ and for that i am VERY THANKFUL …
Now Wwe are in the process of re evaluating whether or not i am ready for a collar again … and this is not a subject to be taken lightly … in fact.. its even more serious than when Wwe engaged in this 5 years ago … because now all the blinders are removed and the “glitz , glamor and mystery” has been reveiled… and the REAL DEAL is here for Uus to see …. and i look at this with great honor .
i could easily ( and believe me sometimes still do ) look at this subject / situation with shame and embarressment … but today i dont see it that way ~ i see this as a turning point to enter into reality TOGETHER !!! What may seem like the most horrible thing to happen to a slave could be the best thing that could have happened to me !!! i dont know yet ~ but i am honestly open to see . i am hopeing that Wwe will work through these issues and be together ~ HONESTLY !! i am willing and ready to do the work of this .
Am i ready to wear His collar again … today ?? probably not … but i have complete faith that if i do the work .. it will happen . A way that i think might be a good way to start back into a 24/7 situation is to work within moments in time ,,,, such as weekends or week to week ,,, At first this seems lame ? but i see it as a realistic way to set boundries . i suggested Wwe do this THIS weekend ~ but i cant tell if Wwe did it or not ( hahahah) … i have been following orders and trying to be “good” so im following my own protocols ~ i’m not sure if He is aware of this ?? maybe when He wakes up i can ask Him ?? But im cool with it ~ either way … maybe Wwe can do a Tues-Thurs thing ? i dont know … but its a start !!!! my point of this is to show honest intenet and good Sirvice … and provide happiness to Him !! So maybe by working together during these times Wwe can evalute when might be a good time to go 24/7 again . i honestly do want to wear His collar again … and be together with Him ~ forever !
Am i worthy ? This sounds like a very loaded question … but it must be addressed … what is the critiriea of worthy ? to me … worthy qualities are ~ honest ~ non reactive ~ peaceful ~ helpful ~ open ~ showing good judgement ~ good self esteam … etc . i can see that if these are the elements i set forth … i will have my work cut out for me … but BOY O BOY … wouldnt it be great to acheieve this ? YES !! This is my goal !!!!
How about HIM ? what qualities would i see for Him … the man that holds the key to my heart ?? well ~ He already exhibits many of the qualities i expressed above ( which would hold true for a Master ) but what other things would i project as being worthy for Him to hold a complete slave ~ more specifically ME as a complete slave ?? hmm… i think its not time for me to express that ,, i would like to hear from HIM what He thinks are appropriate attributes …. but i must say ,,, that i completely LOVE Him … with all that i am …
i could have never asked for a more perfect person to challange me ~ and make my life a source of joy and growth ..so thankYou for being my Master ~ even without a collar … because that is just a PART of who Wwe are … not what Wwe are! i will give this concept more thought… because i would humblely request that perhaps an entry to slavehood can be met with honest understanding of what the slave needs ( from my perspective ) and can be part of the process of collaring ….
What does a collar mean to me now ? Gosh ~ that is a BIG BIG one … isnt it ? well ,, today ~ as i see it ~ a collar means complete submission on my part and complete Ownership on His part … and this is where He and i will need to agree … and i TRULY FEEL WwE WILL !!!!!!
i will leave this open letter and thought stream for now ,,, with a finale note ~
i declare to the universe that i am absolutly on the path to becoming a slave to Master Dvnt again … and it is my
full intention to meet all requirements set forth and look at this process with joy not resentment … because it will
be in honesty and TRUE LOVE that Wwe will find oourselves living !
~ humbly mara moon
Yoga Journal 21 day challange
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Hey all ~
i started the Yoga Journal 21 Day Challange … and you should to !!! Seriously !! Even though ive been a yogini for years .. its super fun to follow along and be connected with an activity that thousands of others are doing too !! i started to get my mom to … and so far so good !!
Totally check it out !!
John Willie ~ an exceptional vision
By · CommentsTo me ,,, John Willie is one of the greatest artists of the Fetish World … His artwork is beautiful and his efforts in
bringing “Bizarre” to the world is commendable !!! Please seek out more about him if you think hes cool too !!
John Willie
John Alexander Scott Coutts (December 9, 1902 – August 5, 1962), better known as John Willie, was a pioneering fetish photographer, illustrator, and bondage artist.
]Life and work
Coutts was born in Singapore and grew up in England; contrary to some claims, he was not related to the Coutts banking family.[1]
In 1921 he entered Sandhurst and in 1923 was commissioned a Second Lieutenant in the Royal Scots. He was forced to resign his commission in 1925 after marrying a nightclub hostess, Eveline Fisher, without the permission of his regiment, whereupon he moved to Australia; the marriage ended in divorce in 1930.[2]
In the mid-1930s, he began working for a Sydney-based fetish club as an illustrator and photographer; around this time he began a relationship with Holly Faram, one of his models, and they married in 1942.[3] He was an early enthusiast for the writings of Jorge Luis Borges, and invited the Argentinian to Australia in 1938, to give a short series of lectures in Melbourne, sponsored by Bohemia magazine.[4]
Around 1945-47 Coutts moved to New York City via Montreal, in order to publish his bondage and fetish magazine Bizarre; Holly chose to remain in Australia where she died in 1983 at the age of 70. When he moved to America Coutts adopted the name ‘John Willie’.
Bizarre was published, somewhat irregularly, from 1946 to 1959 (compare with ENEG‘s work in Exotique magazine, published 1956 – 1959). The magazine included many photographs, often of his wife, and drawings of costume designs, some based on ideas from readers. There were also many letters from readers; he was accused of inventing these, but insisted that they were genuine. The letters covered interests such as high heels, bondage, amputee fetishism, sadomasochism, transvestism, corsets and body modification.
As a bondage artist, he is best known for his character Sweet Gwendoline, which he drew in a clear, anatomically correct style that influenced later artists such as ENEG and Eric Stanton. Other characters include U69 (censored to U89 in some editions) as the raven-haired dominatrix who ties up Gwendoline and Sir Dystic d’Arcy, the only prominent male character and probably a parody of Willie himself.[5]
The comic strip was published by Irving Klaw, who forced Stanton to paint clothes over the whip marks on the originals of “The Missing Princess”.
After publishing 20 issues of Bizarre he moved to Hollywood, California. He developed a brain tumor in 1961 and was forced to stop his mail order business. He destroyed his archives and returned to England where he died in his sleep.
He was portrayed by Jared Harris in the 2006 movie The Notorious Bettie Page, which featured a (fictional) meeting between Willie and Page.
Bondage Night Chicago ~ January 21 ~ Players Paradise !!
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BNC Presents ~ Kinky at The Continuum
Master Dvnt and i will be co hosting O/our monthly play party at The Continuum !!
Wwe will be joined by Mistress Xena & Peter Propaganda with Mistress Cleo as well ….
Please Join U/us …
Chicago In Leather
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Thursday January 19th
The Chicago History Museum is hosting an exhibit and discussion about the rich history of chicago
in the Leather Community …. They are hosting a cocktail party to kick it off … W/we will definetly be there !!
Chicago in Leather: Program and iPhone App Launch Party
Thursday, January 19, Cocktails begin at 5:30 p.m.; programs begin at 6:30 p.m.
The LGBT leather community in Chicago has made a historically meaningful impact on the city in a variety of ways. Join us for an evening that will discuss the importance of gay men’s leathermotorcycle and backpatch clubs, bars, women’s groups and spaces, and how large events like International Mr. Leather have helped shape Chicago’s leather subculture. Panelists will also explore how gender, sexual orientation, collaboration, and separatism have co-existed throughout the past five decades.
Cost: $12, $10 members and students
Heavy Rubber For Sale !!!
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ive decided to clean out my closet …. so please check out my ebay auctions …. Ive got 3 really great pieces up ~ DeMask ~ Inner Sanctum and Stormy Leather !!
Check em out !!
i need Discipline !!!!
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From time to time… its Xciting to look ~ from time to time … its Xciting to see … these things do interest me ~
a visual poem …
A NEW MAsT in town !!!
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As Yyou may or may not have known…. Windy City MAsT has disbanded… but a group of dedicated
and devoted Masters and slaves ( and those who love them) started a NEW chapter for MAsT Chicago … its called Greater Chicago MAsT …. please check out their information if Yyou are so inclined !!
They have a Fetlife page with updates, discussions and information ….
Current Mood: Playful
Bondage Night Chicago presents …. XXXmas Holiday Event !!!
Saturday, December 17, 2011 ·11:00 PM – 4:00 AM
Location:
RSVP for details
Cost: $20 w/ RSVP
Dress code: Perverted Santa’s, Kinky Mrs.Claus’, Slutty Elves, Horny Reindeer’s, Human Presents, Fetish, Lingerie, Glam, Drag,Latex, Cyber, Saran Wrap
Description:
With your Hosts… Mistress Xena & Mistress Cleo
Shibari Rope Bondage by… Master DVNT & slavegirl mara moon
Music by… Peter Propaganda & Lolly Gagger
Perverted Santa’s, Kinky Mrs.Claus’, Slutty Elves, Horny Reindeer’s, Human Presents are all welcome to attend.
Feel free & bring candy canes, holiday cookies, egg nog, fruit cakes for all the guests to share.
- The Continuum – Downtown Chicago.
-Saturday, Dec17th (3rd Saturday of every month).
-11pm-4am.
-21+. You must bring your ID. Without an ID, you will NOT enter.
-$20 Admission.
-BYOB. There will be snacks & beverages provided.
-Bring your own toys.
-No cameras allowed.
-Street Parking is available. Or, you may park in nearby parking lots.
- Attire: Perverted Santa’s, Kinky Mrs.Claus’, Slutty Elves, Horny Reindeer’s, Human Presents, Fetish, Lingerie, Glam, Drag, Cyber, Saran Wrap, Casual.
Dungeon Etiquette:
http://bondagenightchicago.com/etiquette.htm
RSVP: bondagenightchicago@yahoo.com
The address will be given to you, once you RSVP. You must RSVP, using your full name. RSVP’s after 5pm on Dec17th will not be accepted. Make sure you mention ‘Bondage Night 12/17′ in the email subject line.
Main website: http://bondagenightchicago.com
“We’re making a list, we’re checking it twice, hopefully you’ve been naughty & not so nice!”
SIRrender
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A real Master is not a teacher: a real Master is an awakener. His function is totally different from a teacher; his function is far more difficult. And only very few people can stay with a Master because to wake up after millions of lives is not an ordinary feat; it is a miracle. And to allow somebody to wake you up needs great trust, great surrender.
The deeper you surrender to existence, life, nature, the more loving, the more understanding, the more insightful you become; and that insight will bring you closer to Him. You will find in Him, indirectly, the state of total surrender, total trust.
Surrender means to live the same way in life as a good swimmer swims in the river. Life is a river. Either you can fight or you can float; either you can push the river and try to go against the c. or you can float with the river and go wherever the river leads you.
A little each day … give up the ego … give up the fight …. enter with love ~
enter with an OPEN mind~ OPEN heart ~ and OPEN hand.
thoughts of the day by moon.
Naughty ?? Nice?? or BOTH ???
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HoHoHo !!! Its the holidaze and its time to get a little RELIEF from the season !!
Come PLAY with Chicagos HOTTEST fetish freaks …. BNC !!!
Be Yyou naughty or nice… theres always room on Santa’s lap ( or Mrs.Claus’s) for YOU !!!
Its a long and winding road ….
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As a new practice toward self improvement
…. im now going to make a record of every time im negative …
so starting today … i will write down everytime i do or say something negative !!
12-10-11
i called the artists at a gallery something bad ( cant remember exactly what) … but it would be in reflection
of a few things …. i was reacting to at least things ( if not more) ….
My judgement of the “art” there ….
Possibly seeing people i dont want to see ~ fear of conflict .
and the desire to possibly just stay at home … relaxing .
so ,,, there is the first of what is guaranteed to be a long list ….
my reasoning for this is to examine myself in the hopes of getting better someday !!
Pathway to Happiness
Shibaricon ... Here we go again !!!
