Deep in the Heart of ......Archive for September, 2009
697 Eternal
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Each moment…
changes the World.
only one moment…
always changing….
lasting forever.
& this moment…
endlessly expanding,
endlessly disappearing,
& this moment….
so sacred….
Changing My World forever.
- L8VING u 697 Eternal -
This Sat – NAUGHTY at the STUDIO
Posted by: | CommentsSEPTEMBER 26, 2009
BondageNightChicago is happy to present :::
NAUGHTY @ the STUDIO
(LAST SATURDAYS OF EVERY MONTH)
Hosted By Mistress Xena ——————— Performance By Miss Jaded
MUSIC… BNC resident DJ Peter Propaganda spinning: Industrial, EBM, Electro
Location: Chicago, close to I90 / I94 / I55 / Lake Shore Drive
Time: 11:00 P.M. – 4:00 A.M.
Price: $20.00
Booze: BYOB
Age : 21+
Cameras: No cameras allowed @ the Dungeon.
Toys: Bring Y/your OWN TOYS
Parking: Parking is available in the back of the dungeon space
Dress Code: Fetish, Glam, X-Dress, Bondage, Casual, Goth, Cyber, Uniform
Click here to see photos of the Studio
Please read the Dungeon Party Etiquette Page
private. YOUR FULL NAME (WHICH YOU PROVIDE TO US) MUST MATCH YOUR PROOF OF IDENTIFICATION, IN ORDER TO BE ALLOWED INTO THE CONTINUUM
ID’S ALLOWED: DRIVER’S LICENSE, STATE ID, MILITARY ID OR PASSPORT! If
you don’t have proof of Identification, you WILL be turned away.
RSVP: mistressxena_chicago@ yahoo dot com
Everythings GREAT.. when its going your way…
Posted by: | CommentsSure.. its really great when everything is going your way.. when all of what you want is being satisfied.. when there’s no threats.. no problems… and you are in heaven..
but what happens when the illusion is shattered and suddenly Master is doing something you don’t like? or its hurting in a bad way ? where is your resolve then.. is it easy to be a slave then ? is it hunky dory ? to you at the time.. to me…. not so much… thats when dedication has to be there.. dedicated to know.. ALL THINGS MUST PASS… both pleasure and pain.. here today… gone tomarow.. was it ever here? has it ever left?
Dealing with someone else’s wishes other than your own is very difficult.. even those whom claim its so hard for them to accept service.. its just a facade.. they are using that excuse to feed their martyrdom.. yes.. i believe they want to GIVE.. but its truly their DESIRE… right? they want to be in control of the situation by giving so much.. so it can feed the ego one way or another.. this is service to thy self. gettingw hat you want. so when you are confronted with doing something thats not your choice.. how to face that ? face the fear ? fac the issue of.. ok.. i have to do something i really dont want to .. i can do it.. or not. accepting this is the slave way.
so when you dont get what you want.. look at your reaction.. do you run and hide ? do you stamp your feet ?? me.. i do both.. on occassion.. but its with the knowledge that what ever i WANTED was just my prefererance.. and just His perferance too.. so this will pass.. and the intention and heart is the matter.. the respect.. the true service is the open heart… the gentle hand with each other.. not the particulars of the situation.. this will pass.. but O/our love remains always…
so when things don’t go my way.. i know that the way is always changing.. but is always the same in that changing.. ever evolving.. ever true to O/our path…and that because at the moment i cant see the path.. because of the walls i built around me.. or im looking at my reflection in the water and not wanting to break my gaze,, and i hear His voice.. like drops in my pool.. i can smile and know that i am thankful for Him… to always be here for me.. for a Master is our guide.. and our partner on the journey too…
i always say to my Master.. “oh.. am in Your way ?” and He always says.. YES.
originally posted on Fetlife.com
a sincere apology
Posted by: | CommentsMaster ~
Thank You for loving me.. even when i make mistakes…
i am truelly sorry for being a brat last nite.. it was in that flash of an instant that
i let my egoic pain body take control.. and my respect and Sirvice took a back seat.. i am ashamed and yet very thankful… it actually felt beneficial to connect as Your slave.. feel Your power and understand O/our dynamic in the HERE and NOW..
it’s hard to sometimes see how obsticles can become opportunities… but i can see that last night i learned a valuable lesson.. You were the one who said “you need to be whipped”.. i guess W/we didn’t understand just HOW at that time… i need my ego to be whipped into shape…
i know its very very hard to see myself sometimes.. and to look with all the covers off.. and last nite You showed me my reflection in the mirror,, and i did see a loving loving slave.. who lives to be of Sirvice and who honors her Master.. so if thats the case… i vow to show You in every way i can..and i apologize that i failed to be my best… i humbely kneel before You and say thank You Lord….. for seeing me through that moment .. holding me.. not judging me.. and believing in me.. it’s Your continued support and effort that give me strength when i need it….
i love You , Master… forever…Sirever… Masterever….
- slave sincere
This weekend… Windy City MAsT & BNC Dungeon Party!
Posted by: | Commentsmara & I are looking forward to this fun weekend back in Chicago!
Friday – Windy City MAsT Meeting
Friday we will be attending the Windy City MAsT meeting which will be great to catch up with folks. We will be doing a drum circle & I will be bringing my black earth jimbe drum.. I have been a percussionist since I was a child & my father was a drummer as well.. I grew up with a drum set in my living room so as soon as I could sit on that seat I was jamm’n! So yeh I’m pretty good on the hand drum & mara will be bringing her dragonfly wooden blocks or the smaller hand drum from India. so I look forward to a great discussion, see’n everyone, a great drum circle & putting my birthday present from mara to good use on Friday!
Here’s the WindyCity MAsT website…
Saturday – BNC Private Dungeon Party
Due to all our travel, it’s been a while since mara & I have been to the BNC Dungeon parties so W/we are really looking forward to catching up with everyone there as well! I know folks have been missing U/us so thanx for the support & if you were teetering about going, get your but out there & say hi! I’ve got a couple new trix up my sleeve & I’m going to be breaking out some new rope, a whole bunch of 8mm linen hemp.. so we’ll see what happens with THAT! OOOCH! >:)
I know the grass always appears to be greener on the other side but I will tell you from all O/our traveling & attending various pay parties around the country, I have concluded that we have something really unique going on here & the Bondage Night Chicago parties really are some of the BEST parties happening in this country!
To attend this party, you MUST RSVP…you can do so by contacting me through this website, RSVP through the Fetlife event page or through the RSVP contact on the BNC website.
BNC DUNGEON PARTY FETLIFE EVENT
Bondage Night Chicago FetLife Group
Look forward to seeing you all!
-DVNT
Very Appropriate Desire…
Posted by: | CommentsIt might not be the right time of the day…
it might not be appropriate at all…
but my dear lord…i cannot resist…
to peek at You… look at You…
and You are so very welcoming… so beautiful…
i cannot keep myself from touching You…
from caressing Your face…
holding Your hand…
You allow it… i can feel Your accepting embrace…
and the heart aches from passion…
and i look in Your captivating eyes and You look back
and You see me…
You… You… look… really see… and the soul burns with jOy…
this could be wrong Lord… but then i wish forever
to make mistakes like this…
a beautiful poem by Swami Krsnananda
titled “Inappropriate Desire”
but to me… it is very appropriate.
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to me.. everyday is Valentines day…
Posted by: | CommentsMaster Fugon~
i love….
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to my Master Fugon~
to know the truth… and still continue.. for this i am forever grateful…at Your feet i am a child…
to look in the mirror and see Your reflection…
Your mara
Goi’n Camp’n!
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Greets F/friends..
Were headed off camping for the weekend at Shawnee National forest for the weekend, Friday thru Monday..
So anyone who has our #, we wont be using our fones except for emergencies so don’t bother calling us! 
Were not going to be camping on the campgrounds, rather were going to be “primitive” camping into the depth of forest as to be just her & I & the Big Mother Earth. Mara is a 
100% city girl & she had never been camping before me… I have helped her gain courage to do many things, camping is one of them… I took her camping for the 1st time last year at this same time to Ledge Park & really enjoyed herself.. & she even made friends with all the daddy long-leg spiders! It was great but there were to many people around us “half-camping”.
..apparently some peoples idea of camping is watching TV’s, basting Black Sabbath & attracting police with drunken supers…. so all that selfish human activity made it a little harder to connect with the nature around us… regardless, it was wonderful. We also went Canoeing which was a 1st for mara s well.. O/our time on “Frog Island” will always be close to my heart. This will be maras 2nd time camping & this time we will be 
getting away from all the other campers to be really really in nature & I look forward to enjoying some wonderful time with her. This time I will be making an effort to help mara touch the harmony of nature…. to help her connect with the Oneness running through us all that is the river of life..
- Master Dvnt
Corpus-doodlebeems..
maramoon performing with SS-Triple-X ~ Tonight~ Debauchery !
