a sincere apology .... one aspect of many ~ the impact of TRUTHCurrent Mood:
Happy
FINALLY got this video edited & available from the House Dvnt Archives! 
This event was a fundraiser for a friend; Fred Burkhart who has been a fetish photographer since the old-school, which was diagnosed with Cancer.. You will see him walking through the field of view taking pictures.
It was an intimate event with some intense & magical moments. Ive been doing performance art since the early 90′s & for me, this video captures what performance art is all about, as well as the free spontaneous flow, trust & intimate connection of Kinbaku. Channeling ones essence energy to poor it out into the world. To express trust in the moment, deep trust in each other, clearing the mind & heart, trust it the expression, in the erotic mandala we create & wash away – what we call the art of Kinbaku..
You cant tell to much in the video but, it was SO HOT during this exhibition, we were POORing with SWEAT.. Because of this, there were some rope issues with slippage happening because the ropes were literally soaked with sweat, but we adapted well & carried it through! I view adaptability as another quality to express ones depth of skill in a given art form*
I love to share these moments with everyone out there.. I have had so many beautiful & amazing moments with mara, I wouldn’t trade in for anything.. & I look forward to MANY MORE*
I wanted to get this up in honor of the one I L<3VE* Happy Birthday to My moonbeem! : D
~MD
Enjoy !
The Girls Of Leather
By · CommentsCurrent Mood:
Cool
Here is a GREAT news/info article i found on www.leatherati.com ….. i am excited to share this …..
There are many boys of Leather groups that have existed for quite some years now, including those from Denver,D.C., Phoenix, Jersey, New York, Windy City, South Florida, San Francisco , Keystone, Houston, Central Texas, Kansas City (rebuilding) and the newest Albuquerque founded by boy Leon! They boast of brotherhood, the Leather boy heart and amazing events put on by and volunteered for by these groups.
Then there is the sisterhood; there seems to be a passionate interest in the Leather Women’s community for more unity and closer bond sharing. There are many contests, a few conferences, and women’s groups that are very much catered to Leatherwomen including: Desire, Women’s International Leather Fest, International Ms Leather (IMsL), Bound By Desire, F.I.S.T and Exiles to name a few. The flames of diversity amongst Leatherwomen in the community are bold, very strong and grow bigger as the years flicker by.
One integral part of the Women’s Leather community is the now quickly blooming Leathergirl movement. What helped with the beginnings of it was the Leather girl pride flag (pictured left), created by Sheryl D, Mama’s Faery girl. The first unveiling was at the Ms San Diego Leather Contest in November of 2003 and shortly after again at American Brotherhood Weekend in April 2004. However, something deeper was needed than just wearing a patch, buying pins, sewing flags (as first done by girl nancy) or helping fundraise for Sheryl to travel, lecture and hold more girl and girl/boy parties.
We have watched as Leatherwomen have put their heads together to ponder how more connections and bonds can be created and what needs of the community have not yet been met. Now we see girls of Leather groups popping up in large cities throughout the Leather Community. One such game-changer of the recent girls of Leather restart is Leland Carina who founded the current San Francisco girls of Leather based on a previous iteration of the same group. Part of their mission is to “provide camaraderie and a safe space to any individual who identifies as a Leathergirl.” The San Francisco girls of Leather are very active in their local communities offering their volunteer services and support, other organizations’ events and fundraisers frequently. Leland has just stepped down as President to focus on strengthening National connections for the group; she is confident the club is poised and ready to flourish under new leadership.
“I wanted to create a safe space for girls in our community. We need allies and peers,” replied Leland as she remembers the reasons why she reformed the San Francisco girls of Leather, “I feel like this is especially important for new girls, they need to have a safe place to land in our complicated community.”
Kaitlin Beefy, a passionate, queer, Leatherwoman of many gifts and talents, is excited about starting the Dallas chapter of girls of Leather.
“The idea of a girls of Leather group for Dallas had been floating around for a few months, and after this past South Plains Leather Fest (SPLF) in March I talked with a very lovely woman from the Seattle chapter and she gave me that last little push I needed to really get this started,” Kaitlin says.
Kaitlin continues, “Here in Dallas, the girl presence was definitely visible, but we really didn’t have a place that we could join together and service our community as one. I think us girls will be able to do great things as a group. I am so thrilled that the girl movement is taking off and gaining momentum and we really have a chance to shine.”
The Arizona girls of Leather group boast about 10 members and have been existence in some form since 2005. slave alena girl, who is treasurer, says they hope to do more in connection with other groups to get the word out about their activities. She was excited to attend the recent SPLF conference, especially when she ran into some fellow Leathergirls there as well.
She said in an email, “I got to spend some time with angel from the SFgoL, and saw pink compete for International Master/slave as well. So wonderful to see a fellow girl as a titleholder (pink is Northwest slave 2011) – and she did a fantastic job.”
You can read more about Arizona girls of Leather and what they’ve been up to here.
The Seattle girls of Leather group have also been richly active. President Candace remarks,
“We also did our first Leathergirl Invasion at The Wildrose. We had a blast doing a train through the bar and eliciting laughter from the other patrons. Every month, SgoL will be “invading” some bar, restaurant, or event in the area, is bringing our special brand of fun to the community.”
With interest also in Georgia and in Houston, it seems as if there is a stirring of energetic community service and renewed unity and strength amongst Leathergirls across the nation. We at Leatherati look forward to seeing how things progress with each group and will check in on them later!
From Bondage To Freedom ~an event review ….
By · CommentsCurrent Mood:
Playful
3/17/12
O/our first new monthly play party at The Studio was a great success !!! W/we all had such a wonderful time !! The crowd was full of vibrant life and excitment with lots of old friends and many new faces ( some very cute ones at that ! ) .
Mistress Xena was on point all night in her new blue latex cat suit (meow!) … strutting her stuff and causing mayhem at everystep …. i’ve never seen a women use a fuck saw like she does !!!! she had many subbies at her command and it was super hot to watch all her activites !
Master Dvnt and i had a GREAT time breaking in BIG RED ~ O/our new industrail strength Kinbaku rig … its a beauty !! And the really AWESOME part was having lots of good friends there who played on BR too … i love watching rope scenes and this party was the place to be for some FUN rope play !!!
We had a visits from other Chicago Pros who really added to the play scenes .. i’d like to thank them for their support and look forward to having them out again !!
Seeing many of our good friends there to support and play is inspiring and it really added to the community feeling ….
There was a great mix of SnM Bondage play and good ol “in and out” … so in other words ~ something for everyone !!! hahahahah!!!
it felt so great to be in a space where we felt wanted and could share in an open way ,,, so A BIG THANKYOU to The Studio !!! The space was so beautiful and clean ~ and our snacks were awesome … i LOVE fresh fruit and veggies … what an UPGRADE !!! Everyone had tons of FUN and yet were able to remain in control and respect eachother … what a DELIGHT !!!!
Everyone looked great and had a big smile … which is fantastic !!
I’m personally so proud to be part of the BondageNightChicago Crew and feel joy in being part of this new beginging … a NEW way … a better way for U/us !
Hope to see more of our down and dirty friends next month ….same cat time ~ same cat channel !!!
Dont forget … we will be adjusting O/our hours to 10-3 next month !!!
forever in bondage ~ forever in freedom ~
xoxox~
mara moon
Current Mood: Happy
Master Dvnt and i will be joining forces with O/our long time friend and partner , Mistress Xena , to bring Bondage Night Chicagos Original Players to The Studio !!! There have been alot of positive changes to O/our core group and we couldnt be happier !!
We will be hosting O/our monthly play party at The Studio from this point forward ,,, and with that move W/we have been able to impliment some really positive new policies !! For One … W/we have really upgraded the space at The Studio …. its a very well appointed and CLEAN dungeon with lots of professional equipment and a lovely layout !! W/we also are introducing a new NON Alcohol policy … so W/we can all play alot harder and SAFER … we have long been concerned with alchol and playing and we finally were able to make the move away from it !!! So CHEERS to that !! W/we also have opened the doors to a younger generation and can allow 18+ … so that will bring provide a very healthy place for new comers to come explore !!!
We are so very happy that W/we have become a Workers Collective and now will be working together with Mistress Xena to provide a GREAT play space and AWESOME scenes !! W/we hope to see alot of O/our friends at O/our new location !!
RSVP @ www.bondagenightchicago.com
My mara Valentine
By · CommentsTo My mara Valentine*
Your arrow.. For8ver & Always*
Be my Naughty Valentine ~ An Event in review
By · CommentsCurrent Mood:
Esctatic
2-11-12
Be my Naughty Valentine ,,,
The evening started out with the excitement of the guests finding the new venue in a secret west loop location …. when they finally arrived to “The Bondage Vault” they were greeted with a spectacular Valentines Speakesy atmosphere ! The space was decked out as much as the lovely guests were ,,, with 100s of hearts suspended from the ceiling , John Willie and other classic bondage images on display , a framed art Exhibit by Fernando Castle and inviting lighting really created an erotic and welcoming space .
Step in and and enjoy the fetish inspired music of Peter Propaganda and Saint … and watch the over 80 guests mix and mingle and getting there Valentines groove on ! With several play stations in the club it was really cool to watch Mistress Xena playing with Her submissives while Alexandria Sadista inflicted violet wand torture to Her little slave !! XXXciting ! Master Dvnt enjoyed several fun scenes throughout the night including Shibari and Whipping ~ it was a sight to be seen ! Feral Minette had a great energy with her playful rope scene ~ meow!
There were so many new faces to BNC and it was a pleasure to watch them all enjoy each other ~ the space and the happy enviornment ! There were a few notable play scenes that drew alot of attention ~ including a head shaving by the adoreable fedz and some great rope work by a fun group from michigan … Bravo for really getting down and dirty at The Vault !! It was great to see Mistress Gia Maze there with Rick and Her subboy as well …they were a delight.
We had a wonderful time hosting the event and it was a pleasure to have WildHare there to capture all the fantastic costumes and some of the scenes … these will surely be images that will be cherished by all ! Thanks to all who had fun in the photobooth ! Lee kept his cool at the door ~ Thanks MAN !! Plus we were all kept in line by Mortis and his eagle eye … no one got too out of hand with him DMing !
Thanks to the crew at The Bondage Vault for helping out and maintaining a clean and inviting atmosphere and changing all the SnM porn videos we had playing throughout the club ~ you were a big help !! It really was a specail event and i had a wonderful time ~ decorating the space , dressing up and having a GREAT and LOVING time with all the community of BNC …. Y/you all make it happen and its an honor to be part of such an awesome lifestyle .
Happy Valentines to ALL my Naughty Valentines !
xoxoxox~ mara moon
TONIGHT ~ Be my naughty Valentine !!!
By · CommentsCurrent Mood: Playful
2-11-12
Tonight Chicago Kinky Friends!!!!
Bondage Night Chicago Presents ~
BE mY Naughty Valentine !!
Changing Fear to Curiosity
By · Comments2-4-12
i am always challenged by fear … i have probably spent a good portion of 41 years dealing with this FEAR …. and examining its roots is an even bigger challenge ! i am so used to feeling fear that its likely one of the first emotions to arise in any situation … its embarrassing to admit … but i dont have to be afraid of ridicule … because i am NOW looking at this FEAR … “yeah ~ you fear over there .. i see you !!! ” …. but its ME !!
Recently some major issues are coming back into play and its bringing up some fears that had been repressed ( not dealt with) for a bit. But ~ here they are …. HI !!! When i look at this situation i know that i can see it from many views …. but i habitually choose to see things from fear . But momentarily i have let down my guard and felt the fear dissipate … only to return in a little while . What was i doing differently when i felt the lack of fear ?? i can see that i was allowing room for options within the unknown … i was sinking into the possibility that the outcome might not be bad … just for a second . i was also trying to feel compassion and understanding ~ stepping away from my NORMAL self involved self centered mode ( boy ~ could i go on and on about that !! ) …. but again … it just poofs away back into fear . How can i allow the spaciousness and openness to take a stronger foothold ~ rather than the 41 years of fear ?? i rise to the challenge !!
When i am working within fear i am closed and unable to be reached ~ when i let down my gaurd ~ i feel less threatened and almost MORE empowered ( is that true?) … when i dont try to control things through fear … can they settle into a non harmful state ? i dont know ~ the fear is always talking and saying ” NO ~ you must maintain the wall ” but when i peeked out for a second ~ i didnt die … and i almost thought i felt OK …. HMMM … maybe the voice i hear is totally full of shit ?? but im too afraid to really find out !! GOD DAMN !
i have a big habit of blaming all my fear on the things around me ~ like my Master shouldnt do that ~ or other people shouldnt do this ~ and why cant it be just the way i would like it ??i say to myself ~ why is it ridiculous for me to simply want what i want and get it ? why must i struggle for every fucking piece of joy ? how come i do everything for everybody and they dont do jack shit for me ? HAHAHA ~ welcome to the HELL realm ,,, the realm of the perpetual Mara Zone …. but i think im closing this highway down for repair !
because for one brief second ~ i DID take the off ramp ~ and i was open to NO FEAR …. i dont want to grasp for that … and hold onto it for dear life ( omg ~ more fear) ….but i does give me hope ~ hope to not make everyone an enemy … and make myself an enemy … and be my own worst nightmare …. so im choosing to cultivate an attitude of curiousness of fearful situations . i am choosing to TRY to see situations in a more compassionate way by examining the REALITY that i am not going to die from this or that .. or what people think .. but the negative can DIE from my life . i am choosing to keep this a construction zone of the curious ~ where any turn COULD be a good one … not all a detour to hell !!
Theres always …..
By · Comments2-1-12
Theres always
someone younger
Theres always
something better
Theres always
a new prespective
Theres always
time to see
Theres always
the now i live in
Theres always
the voice in my head
Theres always
the comparison
Theres always
the reality
Theres always
Hope
i
can
escape
my
mind
soon.
Friday Feb 3 ~ TabuLuve ~ Discipline Play Party !
By · CommentsCurrent Mood: Playful
This friday will be the third night of Oour new public play party …. Discipline . Last months event was awesome … so im really looking
forward to MORE FUN !!! Come check it out if you can !!!
FEAR is the mind killer
By · Comments1-28-12
Realization : Every single one of my negative reactions comes from FEAR . i may displace them as this or that … but they are my inner fears being surfaced . Realization : 41 years of FEAR is alot to overcome ~ but im ready to drop it all !
Current Mood:
Confused
1-22-12
The Open Door
It is with a true heart that these writtings are undergone … becuase it is a true heart that wishes to be revieled …. so please indulge this introspective being as it is attempted to look within and express.
Opening this note with the knowledge that these issues are not new and perhaps to Master Dvnt this will seem to be just another rambling of misinterpratations and mental constructs ~ and they are NOT not that … but they FEEL like more.. so it is to words in the hopes it may help in putting this to rest.
The story begins way way way back ~ likely farther back then it is known .. and it is here and now. Rather than listing the chain
of events ( which is actually how this was being formed in the head) ~ perhaps just using the events as touch stones to discuss Oour
state and the perspective from which the author sits will shed a healing light and give illumination to Master Dvnt as to how the author feels. Starting with a foot hold in NOW … the first step is being taken .
The Closing Door
Not but within a matter of weeks ago i had made some headway in cultivating a feeling of trust and desire to begin to Sirve again… a feeling that did not come easily … how did this feeling arise ? This feeling came from the realization that i can trust Master Dvnt and He is a man of His word … i was listening and felt open again … as if the wounds from Oour past were being healed ~ BY ME …. and it felt awesome and it felt RIGHT … i offered my Sirvices and they were accepted … and it felt calm ~ harmonious and connected … but under what pretense was this feeling concocted ? now it is seen that i was likely placing all kinds of expectations on Him … and settting myself up for more of the old feelings of distrust & rejection …. ONE NOTE … He had told me “you have nothing to worry about” in regards to Him starting any new relationships beyond Uus… so i entered the door again … and let my heart crack open …just a bit … then events have taken place that just smell like the old Biznezz as Usual from oour past … and it slammed the door closed !!! why ???
The Head
It would be so much easier to blame others and point fingers at people around me ~ but this wont help me heal at all … and i dont want to drag others into my negative world ~ i really dont …. its just a wounded animal has the tendancy to do these things … and that is apparently how i view myself ~ so i think .Why do i view others as a threat ? Why am i so fearful of Master Dvnt’s actions ?He would say it is because i am not right with myself ~ and He is correct … but sometimes it is so hard to be calm when faced with the same sitautions and fearing the same results … like i feel im in the Twilight Zone .. and this nightmare keeps manifesting !!! Its really insane … What is my fear ? Where is this fear ? How can it be addressed ? Why do i project ~ am i projecting or are my fears founded ?
The Fear is fear of non disclosuer ~ the feeling of being on a “need to know” bases … and things as of late seem to be headed back in that direction … and it brings up emotional trauma for me . The Fear is of Him playing / being with / liking other women … there i said it … and it hurts to talk about it . But i must . Does repression cure this ? NO … what does ? i dont know … but when these issues arise … Repression and Aggression are my tools of control … i live in the wishing well that He wont do this … and when He does … i feel very disappointed and set myself for rejection and creating situations that actualize my fears … putting gasoline on the fire ! i am nuts ! and i see i am nuts … but that voice in my head tells me to react … and puts all the pieces together to create the puzzle of my dispair ! Why do situations develope that make me distrust ? Am i a psychic and see things coming before hand or am i living an illusion ? How do i deal with this ? i am at a loss..
What should i be ? How on earth can i look at this ? i ask over and over again of Master Dvnt ~ and he gets sick and tired of me..it feels like a broken record that plays on and on . im personally sick of it too.
i want to chop my head off .
The Dream
He says that my love for Him is not real because i have expectations …. and that hurts me . i say His love IS REAL even though He hurts me . Which is the correct perspective ? are expectations bad ? is hurting only true from the observer ? how do couples agree on these issues ? what do other HEALTHY relationships look like ?
i do have a dream …. and that is to be free of my fear ~ to be the healthy and happy person i am somewhere … to laugh and find joy in others happiness. is this just a dream … a hazy faint whisper off in the distance ? i felt it not that long ago … i felt it literally just days ago … so i know IT IS REAL …. not just a fantasy … i want that feeling back ~ is it only in my hands ? or is it a dream Wwe dream TOGETHER ? if i let go of control …. what will happen ? why cant i just ease into life ..Open the door and just walk in ? walk and sit in the room without fear ? Open the door with out expectations …. keep the door open and let love inhabit the room ….
STOP the Internet Blacklist !!!
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Angry
slaveBound , mara and Master Dvnt are speaking out against SOPA & PIPA !!! W/we stand up against censorship and the removal of rights to free speech !!!
CLICK THIS LINK TO GO TELL CONGRESS YOU STAND FOR FREEDOM !!
The Internet blacklist legislation—known as PROTECT IP Act (PIPA) in the Senate and Stop Online Piracy Act (SOPA) in the House—invites Internet security risks, threatens online speech, and hampers innovation on the Web. Urge your members of Congress to reject this Internet blacklist campaign in both its forms!
697 Eternal
Heavy Rubber For Sale !!!